I'm excited to share how God's been tillin' in my heart as of late...
He has revealed to me that in a particular area in my life, my concept of Him is not big enough. Over the years, I've learned He's big enough to trust with a sister and Dad with cancer, miscarriage and infertility, change of careers, unemployment, financial needs, a move across country, a move overseas, safety of my children, deaths of dear ones, a chronic illness, and countless other ways.But I've been hung up on my own inadequacies. Deep down inside, my concept of Him has not been big enough to trust Him to work in spite of them. Somehow, I have this narrow view of the criteria one needs to meet in order to be used.
Over and over God has been whispering to me; "Tammi, you need to stop focusing on who you aren't and focus on who I Am." whoa. convicting.
I have recently become a {volunteer} consultant with Women At Risk, Int. A W.A.R. consultant attends the jewelry parties/events and shares the heart of this organization and speaks on behalf of the thousands of women and children needing a voice. This is the organization that I went on my trip to Thailand with. The purpose of this role is to raise awareness and move hearts to action in joining the battle against human trafficking. If you've read this post you know that I haven't felt adequate for this role.
Last Friday I spoke at another jewelry party. On this night, God gave me the challenge opportunity to flesh out what He'd been teaching me:
*We left later than planned for a party that was several hours away.
*There was an accident that kept us inching a long for 45 minutes. We arrived right at 7, when the party was to start. We still had to set up the jewelry {which takes quite a while}.
*People were late {which I did pray for, so this really is a praise :)}, and others had to cancel last minute.
*I realized I left my notes sitting in the computer printer at home, a short 3 hours away.
*The video presentation of my trip that a friend of mine had done for me was gone. We lost it completely.
*The power point presentation we did in place of that wouldn't work right. The song we wanted to play with it wouldn't play. {With the ingenuity of my bro-in-law, we eventually worked this out}
* I stumbled with some words and remember thinking, "Am I making any sense and connecting with the women here?"
If you looked at this with human eyes, the evening should have ended up being a flop. But God was at work~ as usual.
Out of 20 women who came, 15 women bought. Of those 15 women $1,000 in product was sold!!!! This is in the Detroit area where the economy is one of the worst in the nation. That my friends is a BIG GOD!!! Hearts were touched, lives changed, women were moved to get involved in various ways. That is a BIG GOD!!! Can I hear a sista with an "Amen" ????
And another thought...could it be that our very inadequacies/weaknesses were created, not only to bring Him Gory, but to draw us to Him?
He doesn't need me skilled or unskilled to serve Him, but He wants me to be available.
He doesn't even need me to serve Him. But He wants me to...Just as He wants you too.
Is our God big enough for what is on your heart today?
Psalm 105 :1 "Give thanks to the Lord and proclaim His greatness. Let the whole world know what He has done."
**Coming up I have some exciting stories of how God is working in the lives of trafficked women to share with you!!
